Wednesday, May 8, 2019

Kang Lan & Hari Hiba

Kang Lan atau Pakcik Roslan ( ada juga yang  menggelar pakcik agogo bila merujuk beliau pada zaman itu ) merupakan salah seorang staf pejabat di SMKAKS, sekitar 1994-1998. Beliau mengahwini Kak Aznaliza, ketika itu bergelar Pengurus Asrama. Aku masih ingat beliau enggan dipanggil kang olehku. “Ko budak2 lagi panggil pakcik aja”. Hari ini aku mengetahui, jarak umur kami tidak jauh langsung aku jadi kekok membahasakan dia sebagai pakcik, sementalah beliau masih lagi dalam perkhidmatan.
Beliau aku hubungi melalui aplikasi Whatsapp, setelah diberikan nombornya oleh Zaleha, junior satelit harapanku (walaupun belum bersua muka). Namanya timbul apabila duit tajaan iftar batchku masih berbaki untuk mengisi slot tajaan guru. Melalui syura’ batch 1998 bersetuju menaja kerusi beliau & isteri.
Sapaan ku di Whatsapp tidak dijawab, sebaliknya beliau membuat panggilan telefon kepadaku. Menjawab panggilan secara tetapan lalai, aku berkeras bertanya “nak cakap dengan siapa?” selepas beliau meminta aku memperkenalkan diri sejurus selepas aku menjawab “hello”. Aku tersedar apabila membanding nombor telefon yang terpapar dengan nombor yang telah aku sapa di WA, “eh kejap, ini pakcik roslan ya?” Tebakku yakin.Aku menyebut namaku dan Kang Lan menyambung “yang sekolah SMKA Kuala Selangor kan?” Aku jadi kaget, “Subhanallah, Kang Lan masih ingat saya?!” separa terjerit.
MasyaAllah sungguh terharu. Bual kami panjang. Kisah kegagalanku pada Pidato Piala Diraja dipetik lagi. Rupanya Kang Lan yang menghantar pasukan kami ke pertandingan tersebut. Sempat beliau membebelkan pegawai teknikal yg membetulkan mikrofon semasa aku sedang berucap, punca kelupaan ku, menurut anggapannya.😂😅
Dan beliau menghimbau memori tentang baba. “Kau anak khodi kan? Abah kau sehat?”
Kang Lan masih mengingati banyak maklumat tentang aku. “Iya kang, abah saya dah meninggal baru hujung tahun lepas”. Serentak menuturkan itu, rasa hiba menjentik hatiku. Dari siang, sehingga ke tarawih, air mata ku sekejap-sekejap mengalir sendiri. Dan masih mengalir semasa aku menyudahkan entri ini. Hiba. Rindu. Serentak aku tersedar, Ramadhan ini kali pertama tanpanya. 😢 Dalam kesedaranku, tidak pernah sekali pun aku menuturkan rindu baba, secara berhadapan. Ia bukan satu budaya dalam keluargaku. Baba, am benar-benar rindu.😭
Perbualanku dengan Kang Lan diakhiri dengan janji dari beliau untuk berbincang dengan isterinya perihal jemputan ke Majlis Iftitah, sempena sambutan Jubli Perak SMKAKS. Semoga kerusi-kerusi tersebut dapat diisi oleh beliau & isteri. Terima kasih Kang, mengingatkanku kepada Baba. AlFatihah.

Sunday, May 5, 2019

Mama Saya



Foto pertama diambil ketika usai makan tengahari di restoran e-place. Mama & Dik Mas dalam perjalanan ke Bandar Enstek, bermalam di rumah Kak Bid, sebelum meneruskan agenda esok, pelayaran Islamik. Ini kali pertama mama berpergian setelah selesai eddahnya 4 bulan 10 hari. Kami bersama-sama menyarankan pelayaran islamik mengubati kesedihannya setelah pemergian Baba. Saya masih kelihatan sangat besar biarpun sudah berlindung di belakang mama. 😅

Foto kedua diambil sekembalinya Mama & Dik Mas daripada pelayaran islamik. Bermalam satu hari di Tanjong Malim, sekadar melepaskan kantuk & lelah Dik Mas yang memandu dari KLIA pulang ke Baling. Kesempatan ini tidak kami lepaskan untuk meraikan ulangtahunnya yang ke 65.

Selamat hari jadi Mama. Terima kasih atas segalanya. Sayang mama sangat-sangat, walau tak pernah diucap. Ada rasa janggal hendak menuturkan secara berhadapan. Saya sangat “reserved” dalam hal ini. Mungkin cara asuhan saya sedari kecil tidak menekankan perkara ini. Kendatipun, saya faham benar apa yang saya rasai. Redhakan saya dunia akhirat, Mama ❤️.

Saturday, May 4, 2019

Taking a Break from FB

It is too overwhelming that I can’t handle  it anymore.
It is my birthday, i’m deactivating my FB.
Hopefully it’s a wise gift to myself.
I’m yet to decide whether it is temporarily or not.
This ramadhan will be the testing period.

Happy birthday me!

Friday, July 3, 2015

25 Nonsensical Things of Me

  1. a sweet talker...they share their problem, i listen.. they ask for advises.. i just gave them crap...and they go “thanks a lot Am.. owe u!”
  2. a big supporter of National Breastfeeding Policy
  3. love sarcasm but suck at it
  4. much more younger than the look ;) I can take that anyway..!
  5. don't do high heels
  6. art skills works well during stress
  7. craving for that black Bonia boots just because they looked gorgeous on the display shelf
  8. not into make-up, perfumes & handbags
  9. prefer baking than cooking, unfortunately not good at both
  10. easily remember people birthday though didn’t plan to
  11. not into Siti Nurhaliza, (but my other-half is a fan)
  12. don't really shows true emotion
  13. very short- tempered but seldom scold people because I usually burst into tears after doing so.
  14. keeping mouth shut is a sign of protest/anger
  15. love to read and love to share things I've read though it is not important at all
  16. couldn't answer "what time is now?" spontaneously by looking at the analog clock..have to do a little bit of calculation..pathetic!?
  17. was among the first to have name written in the discipline record in 1995, after climbing up the 'mushroom' and being caught in action.
  18. the only sport that i'm good at is chess... (and technically it is not even a sport)
  19. prefer talking on the phone than texting
  20. looking forward to run my own business.. that's what I've dreamt of since kid.
  21. though i like marketing (and i think i'm good at it), being a part in multi-level-marketing is definitely not me.
  22. suck at programming but that's what i do now
  23. enjoy cleaning toilets, doing laundry and ironing clothes rather than sweeping floor, doing dishes and tidying bed.
  24. can't do shopping alone. it's either a bad choice or coming home empty handed
  25. can sleep easily.. that's a gift from God!;)

quite an archive! 

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Archieve Extraction

I was digging some old stuff when i stumble upon archive from my older blog, so i thought, hey, what if i move it here! Well, you know, some memorable stuff ;) it's not like people gonna read anyway. I mean, who blogs nowadays, when we have facebook rite!

Sadly, i could not move the comments together, but who cares! hehe

Pause and Reflect : The HLP journey - 1

I'm in my second semester, and it's getting harder that i couldn't barely breathe. ;) of course not the literal meaning. haven't really got time sit back and ponder upon what have i gone through so far.

I just got back from meeting my dedicated supervisor, whom i totally respect for his commitment of lecturing. Of my standard, there are two type of teachers ( or lecturers ). One are those who teach or lecture with assumption, the class already understand things they are talking about, and the other one, assume the class have no background idea of the subject matter and will try their very best to make it understandable. For almost all the time, i prefer the latter and he's one of those. And i thank Allah for that!
We have met several times, and he'll be away for Deepavali holiday next week, yet he asked me to present the chapter 1 and 2 next week. The good news is that, i will able to follow the track closely, but on the contrary, i haven't start yet. not even a title! tsk tsk!

O Allah, if this HLP thingy benefits me and my deen, guide me through it well!
Ameen...

endnote : just a ramble from a messed up mind.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

a comeback

been a while since i last wrote! this will be short and quick. just to record my life achievement for today

1- full settlement of PTPTN ;) alhamdulillah... managed to get the less 20% offer! met Cikgu Arbaidah, my KH teacher, back in SMKAKS, there in Wisma MRCB. She remembers me as well, truly touched! we had a short chat and suddenly her queue number been called... then i walked out of the office.

2- meeting my supervisor to discuss about the special topic.. after 2 weeks of headache on picking the suitable one! ;)

3- logging in to the blog after sometimes! ;)

4- recovering from fever

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal

Journal journey

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